Samsara

Life is suffering. Life is shit. People are shit. Look at all the bad there is in the world, why do people need to be so bad to each other? Even if people are not bad, there is just suffering all the time. I have been working hard to understand why and to live with all this samsara but I'm just drowning in it at the moment and am just unhappy all the time.

I have been meditating every day and for a little while during and after all seems ok, I can focus on the here and now and be a little at peace, but then the samara leaks into my mind and stays there for the rest of the day. I see all the crap in the world, all the suffering, domestic violence, racism leading to deaths and so many other things. I know that generally the world is getting better, we have more health , more equality, more education etc etc so all the protests and social media outlining all this bad stuff is probably needed so that more people are aware and therefore even more improvements can be made. But holy crap, all this in your face with death, violence, inequality and so much suffering, then there is just everyday life, which generally sucks also. Working every day, cleaning the house, washing clothes, do dishes. No one even cares. Wow, samara, you bet.